Turning over a new leaf

The last few weeks have been horrible. I have been hurt, scared, confused, angry. You name it, I was probably feeling it. A lot of crap was going on, and I didn't know how to react. BUT, I have decided that I am not going to be unhappy anymore. I was never unhappy in my marriage, or with my husband, but with myself. That has caused a majority of the problems. I have to change it. I have to fix it, and I have to start now. No one can change me but me. I know that I will fall along the way, and I need to learn to accept that I will not do it perfectly. I will do my best. I will need prayers. I will need support. I will need my husband. I will need my family. And I will need my friends. Yes, I am shedding some light on my little secret, Dawn is not always shiny and happy :O I know, I can hear you gasping. I fight many demons within me, and I can no longer fight them on my own. I am asking for help.